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Columba palumbus
Year 2025, Issue 9, Article 8CaseAuthor: Anne Wirtz
Man, 40, shoulder pains.
He came because of a RSI in his right shoulder he has to stay at home and is not able to work. He works as assistant of the teacher at school. He got his job through a special organization who mediates people with unemployment history etc. He works there since a couple of years but it doesn’t give him real satisfaction. “I cannot find it… and thus is my life theme”.
“I am too afraid to show myself, I am standing beside the line”.
About his youth; he is the 3rd from 4 children. When he was 10 yr, his brother who was 17 yr at that time, died in an traffic accident.”He was a difficult boy who wanted to break loose from the family. He was my big brother. I admired him. I was very sensitive and a mothers child.”
Observation; He is a tall, rather thin (leptosom), fragile looking man and one can feel that the world is a harsh place for him.
His family lived in France, being Dutch, and they had a farm there, but because of his mother being homesick they had to come back. He still has the longing for France.
He complains about feeling absent, ideas in his head don’t move. He is very sensitive to other people’s emotions, they take him over easily. If someone acts unfriendly he feels as if being critisized, he shrinks and keeps back,if someone is friendly than he feels happy., he is very dependant of the conduct of others “How much space do I get”?.
Physical complaints; Tension in the heart region with cramped weak and exhausted feeling in the heart region, tension at the plexus solaris, his abdomen full of air. “I try to stay in my head to keep control”. He would like to be part of ‘the’ group, but because he is too much afraid to talk, he feels an outsider and very vulnerable. He is afraid to say wrong things and hurt someone…It is fearful and threatening to him. This has been the situation from his childhood.
His ambition as a child was to be a farmer just like his dad, but he went to university to study Biology because it has a better social standing, later he would go for his Freedom…
He always had a problem to relate in friendships because of his keeping aside. He never used drugs or alcohol because he was too fearful losing control.”Imagine that I should kiss a strange woman, or show any kind of erotic act…. Imagine that I should kiss a boy, that is a homosexual act, than I would be lost!!”I asked him about his sexuality and he told that he became interested from the age of 12, but he was very childish compared to some friends and felt like a crock. He was intimidated by macho guys. At home his mother kept strongly to the old fashioned Roman Catholic religion, erotic was ‘dirty ‘ and she switched the TV off when any program tended to be erotic …”.The marriage of my parents was not a happy one and my mother used to tell me her disappointments about it. I just listened but didn’t dare to react. My distance to girls was big and I felt miserable. I didn’t know how to behave when I fell in love. I was afraid to have sexual feelings and feared that people would laugh about it and humiliate me. After some ‘problematic experiences’ I looked for a therapy,I was afraid to go to group-therapy and I went into body-work and intuitive development.”
He lives together with a partner and they have a daughter who is1 1/2 yr.old. “The start of our relationship was a bit difficult because she was in love with me and I was not with her. I love to be a father though and to take care of wife and child. I have ideals about functioning as a family. ”
After having finished his studies he was unemployed for many years and then they gave him a job and he worked in gardens and parks bur he couldn’t stand it because his fellow workers were too rude, especially to the plants. He loves animals and misses them in the city. He has lots of cramps in his back, shoulders neck, worse at the left side and pressure in the eyes. He has a frequent urination, and his perineum cramps. He does not feel grounded.
He eats a lot, continuously during the day, he has hypoglycemia, his digestion is poor for sweets notably.He has a bloated belly and everything is worse for anticipation. His stool is sticky.
He states that “ Faithfulness and Freedom are important in life “.Remedy choice.(begin kader)
First I’ll give you J.Shores ideas about BIRDS from Reference Works.They live in a different medium, move in air, light carried on thermals.
Bone structure and feathers. Their metabolism is much more rapid. Eat a lot. Birds of a feather flock together. Strong groupings. Vision. Migration, travel. Music.Freedom of movement of ease of expression. Natural, flowing easy.
The polarity ? Absence of freedom. Earth is heavy air is light.
Heavy is trapped in body, in duty, in obligation, in societal forms and rules.
Family / group. Very family orientated. Protective and caring. Strong sense of responsibility, of duty of right and wrong. See clearly.Animal.Thus the characteristics of that kingdom: communication, relationship, vivacity, connection, attraction.General bird themes:Healing energy. Many therapists. Vision, Sees clearly what lies ahead. Spiritual, not religious. Not formalistic but a sense of God. Nervous restlessness as if there is too much energy which is blocked or moves around disharmoniously. Irritability with great oversensitivity and aversion company.
Raptors are high flyers ( and more solitary A.W.) and quite different from the flock birds.COLUMBUS PALUMBA, /doveSuffering abuse. Grief, shame, guilt and no sense of self.
Very sensitive on the interpersonal level. The world is a harsh place, violence and injury. Judged criticized. Too gentle for the world, so appear retarded or delayed. Religion, sex. Urinary problems.
(stop kader)So I gave him Columbus Pal. MK In a solution in a 20 ml bottle.F.U 1 month later March ’03( Observation; When I saw him entering the door of the clinic I saw the change in his posture, as if he has more body.)
He feels that something deep is changing in himself. “ I carried the image of the dove with me. The energy from hips and Hara is stronger. I have more courage to feel and to react. I can see my dark side too more clearly. I used to deny this, it shouldn’t be there just like the fears the depression and anxieties. I denied being unhappy because that is pathetic and if other people reacted at me it was worse. It was a vicious circle. I do not want to let myself be determined by others any more. I feel more energetic stronger more present. There is more confidence in my relationship and we talk more. These last weeks I observed how my muscles cramp as soon as I feel uncomfortable. I still have to take a rest twice a day because of the weakness in my back. I do take better care of myself and I am more outspoken.“ He got the official medical diagnosis from the control doctor, namely; Burn out, and he felt recognized.
His digestion is better and he has no more fears!!!
His arms and shoulder can still be painful but no acuteness any more. His body is rigid from his very early youth. Now he feels that he can breath more freely in his sides and abdomen. He still has the need to eat frequently. “ My body is awakening and more grounded. I realize the difference now. In tense moments I still feel the physical cramps with pressure in my eyes and in my left leg. The right toe nail is inflamed and the toe insensitive. My jaws and mouth tremble when I feel the sorrow of the loss of my brother and other old painful events.”
His sleep is more relaxed.
Dreams ?.
/“I was cleaning the attic with an old girl friend, while walking down the stairs I saw a man’s ghost ( it was myself ) and I was not afraid. “
/” I was biking on a road with an old student friend and I just drove out at a chart rut without consulting him. Then I saw that he was as timid as I used to be.”
/” I told the director of the school where I used to work, about my physical problems and I was ashamed that I just stayed at home because of this “.F.U. 2 1/2 months later April’03They have rented a piece of land with a summer cottage some 75 km out of town.
“ It gives me so much joy. I realize how much I missed it to be in the countryside, it gives me peace and I am cheerful. I feel a deep change in me, I used to resist my own nature, I see that clearly.
Via Feldenkreis I follow my physical progress. I feel much better in my body. If someone pushes me and I have not yet made up my mind, my body tends to cramping, because I do not want to hurt any body by resisting. This can happen with my partner f.e. There is a change in the relationship with my daughter I am more aware and present as a father. I am looking for a new balance in life.”
The digestion is much better, the stool is solid which has not been so for a very long time. The pains in the arms and shoulder are much better but there is still a rest pain. Breathing is more free but sometimes a bit asthmatic if the air is mouldy like in the cottage. Appetite unchanged. He sleeps well.
Dream; “ I was in a space with black yellow snakes than I went out and everything around me was decaying. Thinking about the dream after waking I realized my tendency to avoid things, snakes are like my power,no need to flee from them and mould is ok.
I am better in observing myself in moments of tension and do not loose myself so easily.F.U June ’03I feel good, a little tense these days because I have to arrange things for the WAO.
I have to call the school where I used to work but I feel anxious that they ask me some questions and that I tend “to give myself away” that means that I will react as they expect me to and not how I want it for myself. I always yielded like I used to do to my mother. Now life looks different, I am changing clearly. I want to get rid of the lack of self confidence. It feels very good, I do not want to get lost in the masses without self consciousness. I did a training in a group with men and felt much more safe and could release a lot. I even could tell about the contact with a university professor between my 18th and 26 th, he made me doing exercises in my nude and I did not dare to refuse because he had the power of knowledge., he knew best. If I look backwards I recognize my disgust and my lack of defense.
I dreamed about a certain friend, a psychiatric patient in fact, a ‘dark’ violent person, who went far over my edges and I had to be the ‘white’ person and keep the contact, just like it was in my student years.
I feel a lot more stable in the hips and pelvis less unstable. (wankelend.)
The relationship with my partner is more open we come closer.
I still have physical problems right sided neck shoulder arm and left low back leg and ankle, but I am quite active.more than 6 months after the start of the remedy; Aug.’03
"The last week he felt more stressed again. Normal life starts again after vacation. Everybody is working again and I feel my inhibitions stronger than before.
At home we need to find another rythme, my daughter(2 yrs. now) is weaning of the breast of her mother and she does not want to except it and my partner(M.) who gets irritated throws it out on me. It hurts and remembers me of my mother in my childhood, it gives me that helpless feeling because I cannot reach her, all I say or do is wrong, so I retire. I feel more cramped, rejected and lonely. The remedy does not help me anymore. I am very fearful that I am deteriorating again.
I feel angry if she keeps me off. I have noticed that we both have the same oversensitivity and it makes it difficult to communicate. I would like to be more in nature unlike M. but without her is quite scary to me because it is a move away from her.Analysis.Obviously the remedy did not bring him further at this time and I decided to give him
Lac Maternum in solution and gave him advice to share the drops with wife and child in the coming week(s) because of the inpact the weaning has on the whole family.1 month later."I feel very well with the Lac maternum. It brought more clearness into the relationship. We communicate much better. I can leave her problems with her and we are growing individually together. The tight bands are getting freer.
Physical.
I feel more space inside of my body and I do feel my limitations better but it is hard to accept them. I do mourn when I think of how difficult life has been. "
Dreams.
/I was in a fight attitude, there was a tiger somewhere in the neighborhood and I asked myself what I could do. There were other people around but I was supposed to defend myself. With a pointed stick or so.(this meant to me; stand for yourself!).2nd dream./I was in a fenced little garden at the backside of my house, as I started to push against the fences. It was like a small fight with the borders. Suddenly I saw that my garden was larger and greener.I am changing, I feel more connected to others like my father for example. We discuss the garden but he tends to take over as if he does not see me. I can be more open to him and talk about my sensitivities."2 1/2 months after the Lac maternum.
Observation, he looks good, as if he has more volume, he takes his space.
.
" I feel better all the time, but after a conflict in a men-group I could not sleep for some nights. I tend to take things personally but can let go much easier.
At home life is more harmonic.
Physical.
Much better, I still feel tense at special moments. But in general it is as if a weight has fallen off my back, my chest is more free and I feel more energetic and rooted."We discussed our therapy together and decided that he will contact me if needed instead of making a fixed appointment.
He came because of a RSI in his right shoulder he has to stay at home and is not able to work. He works as assistant of the teacher at school. He got his job through a special organization who mediates people with unemployment history etc. He works there since a couple of years but it doesn’t give him real satisfaction. “I cannot find it… and thus is my life theme”.
“I am too afraid to show myself, I am standing beside the line”.
About his youth; he is the 3rd from 4 children. When he was 10 yr, his brother who was 17 yr at that time, died in an traffic accident.”He was a difficult boy who wanted to break loose from the family. He was my big brother. I admired him. I was very sensitive and a mothers child.”
Observation; He is a tall, rather thin (leptosom), fragile looking man and one can feel that the world is a harsh place for him.
His family lived in France, being Dutch, and they had a farm there, but because of his mother being homesick they had to come back. He still has the longing for France.
He complains about feeling absent, ideas in his head don’t move. He is very sensitive to other people’s emotions, they take him over easily. If someone acts unfriendly he feels as if being critisized, he shrinks and keeps back,if someone is friendly than he feels happy., he is very dependant of the conduct of others “How much space do I get”?.
Physical complaints; Tension in the heart region with cramped weak and exhausted feeling in the heart region, tension at the plexus solaris, his abdomen full of air. “I try to stay in my head to keep control”. He would like to be part of ‘the’ group, but because he is too much afraid to talk, he feels an outsider and very vulnerable. He is afraid to say wrong things and hurt someone…It is fearful and threatening to him. This has been the situation from his childhood.
His ambition as a child was to be a farmer just like his dad, but he went to university to study Biology because it has a better social standing, later he would go for his Freedom…
He always had a problem to relate in friendships because of his keeping aside. He never used drugs or alcohol because he was too fearful losing control.”Imagine that I should kiss a strange woman, or show any kind of erotic act…. Imagine that I should kiss a boy, that is a homosexual act, than I would be lost!!”I asked him about his sexuality and he told that he became interested from the age of 12, but he was very childish compared to some friends and felt like a crock. He was intimidated by macho guys. At home his mother kept strongly to the old fashioned Roman Catholic religion, erotic was ‘dirty ‘ and she switched the TV off when any program tended to be erotic …”.The marriage of my parents was not a happy one and my mother used to tell me her disappointments about it. I just listened but didn’t dare to react. My distance to girls was big and I felt miserable. I didn’t know how to behave when I fell in love. I was afraid to have sexual feelings and feared that people would laugh about it and humiliate me. After some ‘problematic experiences’ I looked for a therapy,I was afraid to go to group-therapy and I went into body-work and intuitive development.”
He lives together with a partner and they have a daughter who is1 1/2 yr.old. “The start of our relationship was a bit difficult because she was in love with me and I was not with her. I love to be a father though and to take care of wife and child. I have ideals about functioning as a family. ”
After having finished his studies he was unemployed for many years and then they gave him a job and he worked in gardens and parks bur he couldn’t stand it because his fellow workers were too rude, especially to the plants. He loves animals and misses them in the city. He has lots of cramps in his back, shoulders neck, worse at the left side and pressure in the eyes. He has a frequent urination, and his perineum cramps. He does not feel grounded.
He eats a lot, continuously during the day, he has hypoglycemia, his digestion is poor for sweets notably.He has a bloated belly and everything is worse for anticipation. His stool is sticky.
He states that “ Faithfulness and Freedom are important in life “.Remedy choice.(begin kader)
First I’ll give you J.Shores ideas about BIRDS from Reference Works.They live in a different medium, move in air, light carried on thermals.
Bone structure and feathers. Their metabolism is much more rapid. Eat a lot. Birds of a feather flock together. Strong groupings. Vision. Migration, travel. Music.Freedom of movement of ease of expression. Natural, flowing easy.
The polarity ? Absence of freedom. Earth is heavy air is light.
Heavy is trapped in body, in duty, in obligation, in societal forms and rules.
Family / group. Very family orientated. Protective and caring. Strong sense of responsibility, of duty of right and wrong. See clearly.Animal.Thus the characteristics of that kingdom: communication, relationship, vivacity, connection, attraction.General bird themes:Healing energy. Many therapists. Vision, Sees clearly what lies ahead. Spiritual, not religious. Not formalistic but a sense of God. Nervous restlessness as if there is too much energy which is blocked or moves around disharmoniously. Irritability with great oversensitivity and aversion company.
Raptors are high flyers ( and more solitary A.W.) and quite different from the flock birds.COLUMBUS PALUMBA, /doveSuffering abuse. Grief, shame, guilt and no sense of self.
Very sensitive on the interpersonal level. The world is a harsh place, violence and injury. Judged criticized. Too gentle for the world, so appear retarded or delayed. Religion, sex. Urinary problems.
(stop kader)So I gave him Columbus Pal. MK In a solution in a 20 ml bottle.F.U 1 month later March ’03( Observation; When I saw him entering the door of the clinic I saw the change in his posture, as if he has more body.)
He feels that something deep is changing in himself. “ I carried the image of the dove with me. The energy from hips and Hara is stronger. I have more courage to feel and to react. I can see my dark side too more clearly. I used to deny this, it shouldn’t be there just like the fears the depression and anxieties. I denied being unhappy because that is pathetic and if other people reacted at me it was worse. It was a vicious circle. I do not want to let myself be determined by others any more. I feel more energetic stronger more present. There is more confidence in my relationship and we talk more. These last weeks I observed how my muscles cramp as soon as I feel uncomfortable. I still have to take a rest twice a day because of the weakness in my back. I do take better care of myself and I am more outspoken.“ He got the official medical diagnosis from the control doctor, namely; Burn out, and he felt recognized.
His digestion is better and he has no more fears!!!
His arms and shoulder can still be painful but no acuteness any more. His body is rigid from his very early youth. Now he feels that he can breath more freely in his sides and abdomen. He still has the need to eat frequently. “ My body is awakening and more grounded. I realize the difference now. In tense moments I still feel the physical cramps with pressure in my eyes and in my left leg. The right toe nail is inflamed and the toe insensitive. My jaws and mouth tremble when I feel the sorrow of the loss of my brother and other old painful events.”
His sleep is more relaxed.
Dreams ?.
/“I was cleaning the attic with an old girl friend, while walking down the stairs I saw a man’s ghost ( it was myself ) and I was not afraid. “
/” I was biking on a road with an old student friend and I just drove out at a chart rut without consulting him. Then I saw that he was as timid as I used to be.”
/” I told the director of the school where I used to work, about my physical problems and I was ashamed that I just stayed at home because of this “.F.U. 2 1/2 months later April’03They have rented a piece of land with a summer cottage some 75 km out of town.
“ It gives me so much joy. I realize how much I missed it to be in the countryside, it gives me peace and I am cheerful. I feel a deep change in me, I used to resist my own nature, I see that clearly.
Via Feldenkreis I follow my physical progress. I feel much better in my body. If someone pushes me and I have not yet made up my mind, my body tends to cramping, because I do not want to hurt any body by resisting. This can happen with my partner f.e. There is a change in the relationship with my daughter I am more aware and present as a father. I am looking for a new balance in life.”
The digestion is much better, the stool is solid which has not been so for a very long time. The pains in the arms and shoulder are much better but there is still a rest pain. Breathing is more free but sometimes a bit asthmatic if the air is mouldy like in the cottage. Appetite unchanged. He sleeps well.
Dream; “ I was in a space with black yellow snakes than I went out and everything around me was decaying. Thinking about the dream after waking I realized my tendency to avoid things, snakes are like my power,no need to flee from them and mould is ok.
I am better in observing myself in moments of tension and do not loose myself so easily.F.U June ’03I feel good, a little tense these days because I have to arrange things for the WAO.
I have to call the school where I used to work but I feel anxious that they ask me some questions and that I tend “to give myself away” that means that I will react as they expect me to and not how I want it for myself. I always yielded like I used to do to my mother. Now life looks different, I am changing clearly. I want to get rid of the lack of self confidence. It feels very good, I do not want to get lost in the masses without self consciousness. I did a training in a group with men and felt much more safe and could release a lot. I even could tell about the contact with a university professor between my 18th and 26 th, he made me doing exercises in my nude and I did not dare to refuse because he had the power of knowledge., he knew best. If I look backwards I recognize my disgust and my lack of defense.
I dreamed about a certain friend, a psychiatric patient in fact, a ‘dark’ violent person, who went far over my edges and I had to be the ‘white’ person and keep the contact, just like it was in my student years.
I feel a lot more stable in the hips and pelvis less unstable. (wankelend.)
The relationship with my partner is more open we come closer.
I still have physical problems right sided neck shoulder arm and left low back leg and ankle, but I am quite active.more than 6 months after the start of the remedy; Aug.’03
"The last week he felt more stressed again. Normal life starts again after vacation. Everybody is working again and I feel my inhibitions stronger than before.
At home we need to find another rythme, my daughter(2 yrs. now) is weaning of the breast of her mother and she does not want to except it and my partner(M.) who gets irritated throws it out on me. It hurts and remembers me of my mother in my childhood, it gives me that helpless feeling because I cannot reach her, all I say or do is wrong, so I retire. I feel more cramped, rejected and lonely. The remedy does not help me anymore. I am very fearful that I am deteriorating again.
I feel angry if she keeps me off. I have noticed that we both have the same oversensitivity and it makes it difficult to communicate. I would like to be more in nature unlike M. but without her is quite scary to me because it is a move away from her.Analysis.Obviously the remedy did not bring him further at this time and I decided to give him
Lac Maternum in solution and gave him advice to share the drops with wife and child in the coming week(s) because of the inpact the weaning has on the whole family.1 month later."I feel very well with the Lac maternum. It brought more clearness into the relationship. We communicate much better. I can leave her problems with her and we are growing individually together. The tight bands are getting freer.
Physical.
I feel more space inside of my body and I do feel my limitations better but it is hard to accept them. I do mourn when I think of how difficult life has been. "
Dreams.
/I was in a fight attitude, there was a tiger somewhere in the neighborhood and I asked myself what I could do. There were other people around but I was supposed to defend myself. With a pointed stick or so.(this meant to me; stand for yourself!).2nd dream./I was in a fenced little garden at the backside of my house, as I started to push against the fences. It was like a small fight with the borders. Suddenly I saw that my garden was larger and greener.I am changing, I feel more connected to others like my father for example. We discuss the garden but he tends to take over as if he does not see me. I can be more open to him and talk about my sensitivities."2 1/2 months after the Lac maternum.
Observation, he looks good, as if he has more volume, he takes his space.
.
" I feel better all the time, but after a conflict in a men-group I could not sleep for some nights. I tend to take things personally but can let go much easier.
At home life is more harmonic.
Physical.
Much better, I still feel tense at special moments. But in general it is as if a weight has fallen off my back, my chest is more free and I feel more energetic and rooted."We discussed our therapy together and decided that he will contact me if needed instead of making a fixed appointment.